Alot of things happen these few days. Yes its been a week pls since i last blogged.
1stly bz with work….
then with my bike prac. I pass prac 5 btw…now awaiting for my trial theory test to take my RTT so that i able to proceed to prac 6. SO will stay stagnant for about 1 mth…
Then comes to my ex. Was angry with him cos he eventually break his promise of actually wanted to sent jany back to ma home. Told him to sent after 6pm to my nanny’s place. @ 8pm he told me that he cant sent, cos jany was crying n he is late for work. N damn he is always like doing like this. Im freaking hating it so so much. I have to take cab back from Comex, with amanda n zali (thanks ppl). Had dinner at ma place after that. What else, got myself a D40, a Nikon Dslr…yes WOW….
The next morning, i was telling my x, not to take jany. He eventually do so, without even say sorry at all. Im so so sad when he gives me a remark, saying that he never have been married to me n Jany come from the God. Whats worst, he told me he dont remember jany comes from me. My heart crushed. How could he actually said that, for all these years, i have been sacrificing my own well being, myself, my health, to take care of him, make him happy in anyway i afford to, n he said that to me. I cried before i went to work n dats a kewl thing to start a wonderful morning. I noe jany come from GOD, but thru me wat? Its our genes that make it happen. Haiz…
A wk ago, this dude who likes me so much, n he same dude who gave me the white adidas watch, persuaded me, n indirectly forcing me to be with him. I was like, whoah, i dont like u, at all. So its kinda difficult to make it happen. SO i was like telling him, we stay as frens n will never be more than that.
The same day, i got that msg from my ex, which is on sat, he msged me, telling me that don’t contact him cos his WIFE will not be happy. I was like, so far…u r freaking lying to me n all. You are married. Jeez. Suddenly, an unknown number msged me, telling me that her name is blah blah blah, telling me not to disturb n understand what i have been thru cos he promise n told me he is single etc/. I wasnt hurt, i told her. Im glad he found someone so he can don’t bother me. The wife do called. Te small world abt it is that, her sister knew my best fren. What i gathered from his wife, he eventually fall deeply in love with me n wanted me to be his etc. Tell most ppl that i m with him!!! WTF!!! Even say to his wife on that wedding day, he loves me etc. WTF double F***!!! THe best thing, im not the only gal he played ard with. BTW, he got married on my bday hahaha thanks, im honoured. WHat made me pissed me off is that, this dude already married, just recently, dont play ard with your wife lah. Even he got to know me, he say he is single! aiyo yo…I hate men who actually told a pregnant woman who carried his child to throw away the baby n try to avoid the responsibility. BEst ting, he actually neglect his responsibility as a husband. I dont freaking mind if u r married. Just be fucking honest lah. Most men are mangkuks…especially MOST VIRGORIANS I NOE!!!!
Ive been having numbness at my index n middle finger on my rt hand. Seen Dr jackson, he diagnose, im might be having peripheral neuropathy. THe worst scenario i might be having is impending stroke. He wants to admit me. but I reject. Was thinking of jany tho, who gonna take care of him n all. I dont trust the father tho. Even i can say, he have to return jany to my nanny, he will freaking not doing it ah. Im so afraid one day i actually obscelete n no one to take care of me. Im sad, yah…
Haiz..
But i really appreacite these 3 ppl…
Amanda, Zali n Azlina esp…who there for me…
if not, ill be crawling on the floor..
